True Story

I have walked for so long. My mind exhausted from thinking because I have withdrawn into myself. Replaying the memories of a past we once had. But this storm is yet to pass. My mind is resistant to life as it unfolds. What is right is no longer considered. The relationship I thought to believe had evolved over time, actually collapsed right in front of my eyes. The closer I get the more questions are left unanswered. I've become concerned with finding the solutions to the problems. The more questions I ask the more stressed and overwhelmed I feel. I'm angry, frustrated, impatient, I feel so devastated I can't find a recovery. At times I think I'm deliberately being put through this. I've asked myself time and time again, where did we stand? I couldn't figure it out so I asked you instead. This is the time when life has come to challenge us because your actions have become a judgement against us. Here to condemn and take no prisoners. He'll disguise himself and mask his feelings and fill his mind with the poison of someone's words. The lies and inaccuracy has left him with comfort. He's unable to differentiate between what's fake and what's real. At the end of thinking for so long, feeling stressed and overwhelmed, all I seek is a comforting word from the man I thought to share my world. I needed you to help ease the pain and help me begin to heal. I've come to the realization that I've only missed the person I thought you were. I loved the concept, the picture in my head. The life I envisioned, the future I planned. It was a creative vision of what life would be like in the future. The existence of a false picture and future, is what I miss the most due to the fact I just never had your true self. So I'll turn my back on what I thought we had. I've learned to just let go! I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. So if she thinks she's earned a prize, she needs to think again. © True story